I seriously wanna believe you.
But how can I?
I so hate to see you touching other girls.
You say you don’t but don’t you know that I am looking at you.
The hardest is to hear you lie to me.
Argh.
Graduation soon!!!
Whatever I am doing,
I can’t help thinking of you.
You, you you… you fill up my mind.
Until I can’t help crying.
I was so so worried about us when I leave here.
I tried to tell myself that everything will be alright for us.
But your face, your smile, your hug, your kiss, your kindness, everything of you touches me and I feel like getting on a bus to a place where you live as soon as I can.
I just miss you so bad.
And I love you this much.
I told all I thought about and my condition to you.
Then you said that what I worried about was all silly.
“You just need to believe me,” you told me.
“We will marry, right?”
Right, my dear, we will.
We sure will.
Still I miss him, I won’t be worried about anything anymore
because you are always here for me
and I am always there for you.
The sunrise almost same like the one I saw 4 years ago.
Now seeing the sunrise, I am thinking what have changed since then.
The 4 years seemed so long in a distance when I was just about to start it.
But see…4 years have already passed by and now I am getting another new step ahead.
I will make it something very meaningfull.
Meaningfull to not only me but those who support me and love me through for all those years.
And to the sunrise I swear, I will love him no matter what and will come back to him.
night night darling
Maybe I shouldn’t have chosen this way…
Oh crap. I feel like crying… :(
im not gonna work at a big company. my work is teaching English in Cambodia. i have a lot of possibilities. so make full use of them. im gonna open my own way.
loosing confidence to love him. what am i supposed to do? i always cheer myself up by remdmbering the words of him. but who knows…maybe he will change. who he is now and was at the time will be someone i dont know at all. i love him this much. and i cant help thinking that this love for him is the reason why we could be apart. i cant believe anything now, at least now.
Are you really going to Cambodia?
Don’t go…
Just talking something nonsense makes our life so much full of happiness.
Laughing out loud, with you, means everything to me.
